Stress~!!

Date: 31/01/09

Stress is the physical pressure, pull, or other force exerted on one thing by another; strain.

Today was very......stressed >< With only 2 days of holidays to go, pressure is building up, i have not completed all my holiday homework, and have little time to do so. This puts me in an awkward position. I have North shore tomorrow and then chinese tutor after that. Aiya~! what a way to spend the last day of the holidays huh~! AND THEN i have to cram all my holiday homework after than. BUT i will be very tired and i would not be able to think very properly. dont you feel sorry for me :( ~!! w8 theres more. Today, my bro and dad had huge arguement, and then my dad just goes rage and blames me for everything. I HAVE ENOUGH STREESSS ALREADY, dont have to put more stupid dickhead =.="

So i relieved my stress today by playing games, and happpy happy klipp was able to play with me. owned him haha~!! anyway. i then got bored and thought i will do some work. its getting late so i went to brush my teeth. And i examined that I HAVE A SPLIT END IN MY HAIR. i try to cut but then i lost it :( for the people that know mee, THIS IS A GRAVE CONCERN i will stress until i get it out. >:( make me angry man. i spent 10 mins looking for it and then just cbs it is still very hot even though is much cooler than previous days.

Stress is NOT ONLY FOR EXAMS you workaholics out there. It is bad to get stressed, you get white hair like me :( and then people bag you coz u look old. =[ i guess stress can also be good right~? it can make you work when u HAVE to work. and sometimes when ur stressed ( but all the dumb teachers dont think soo) you get alot more done and you remember alot more. for some perculiar reason so yer. MY advice is too only stress when needed. like urgencys such as split ends and exams.

310109

Finish~!!

Date: 30/01/09

Finish is to bring (something) to an end or to completion;

Today i was soo happy that i finished my glossary for english language :) thats like 1/3 of my english homework done and then i have done the activity thing. so thats 2/3s of my english language done =] BUT THEN I LOOKED AT QUESTION 3.2 :U WTH is this. I have to draw a 'Language Land' using my subsystems >< style="font-family: arial;">so i am posting for some help, please help me think and i will be a very happy boy~! Anyway, holidays are almost over, like just one weekend. :O and i have northshore on one of those days, soo thats counted as 1 day left for me HAHA~!! crap =.=" soo screwed X.X or +.+ both about the same.

Finish is to bring something to completion. That is one of my worst habits. I never finish stuff. i just like do a bit then leave it and the rush again >< but sometimes, maybe we need to leave things like that. Unfinished, soo we can take a break and our minds not cluttered with THAT thing and clouds our perception. =]

300109

Hot~!!

Date: 29/01/09

Hot is having a high temperature

Today was boring much. AND ALSO VERY HOT LIKE THE NOT GOOD WAY~!! Anyway BORING AND HOT AND CANT BE STUFFED. so i quit homework and went to gaming and eating. Since i shopped too much on my trip it means i cant shop when im sad. So i enjoy my sad times eating and gaming, like shooting games where i can shoot people up and stuff, release my fumes of anger. But after a while of that, the heat was getting to me. AIR CON WAS LIKE ...... too rude to post. So i went to have a cold shower. >< wth I WAS FIRST~!!! so with nothing to do i only could do work sigh~!! but i am happy that i got alot done :)

I cant stand the heat, like if its too hot i just die and melt, unless its the other hot, that i can stand =P hehe~!! The problem with the hot weather is, unlike the winter you can keep wearing clothes, there is a limit on the number of clothes you have on you ><. pfft I WILL ASK ONE QUESTION
AND IF YOU DO YOU TO COMMENT SO I CAN GO FIND YOU AND BAG U~!!! comment and say i do to who likes this kind of weather?

290109

Forgotten~!!

Date: 28/01/09

Forgotten is to omit or neglect unintentionally

Today is wednesday right~?! mhm it is and it was a very hot wednesday like more than two ways :) hrmm maybe just the temperature one. ANYWAY today it was too hot to do work~! but i still did
see how hard working your friend jeffrey kung is haha. soo guess what hw im doing, nothing but the hw of english language~!! Working soo hard but then the heat gets too me so i played a few rounds combat arms~!! hehe.

After lunch i was soo excited for some strange reason, soo i combat armed again hahah good xing qing = good result in anything i do. hehe combat armed and then english languaged till like 1600 and then i combat armed to liek 1645 AND OMG ~! TODAY IS WEDNESDAY~!! I HAVE FORGOTTEN TO GO TOE NORTH SHORE~!!! AFTER LAUGHING AT KLIPP THAT HE HAD TO GO~!!!! pfft i grabbed all the change i could exaclty 35cents :( not enough of tram so i called mum and she took me. Before mum came i was soo urged to do my hair, only if she was 30 secs late sigh~!! but damn she was quick so i went to ns like fobby with glasses~! but anyway ns was all good, i was just A BIT late and seemed to have forgotten everything in chemistry. im RUINED~!!

Forgetting is ALWAYS BAD ALWAYS wait a minute maybe not, like those horrible events that have happened to you in the past. BUT its is somehow very hard to forget those things. i mean why do people in this world remember the most stupidest or the most horrible things but fail to remember the more needest things~!and why do we fail to remember things that we try soooo hard to remember like in exams and then sometimes bad memories all pour in during your most important times in our lives~?? I guess life is just like this, does these brutal things to you.

280109

English~!!

Date: 27/01/09

English is english language, composition , and literature as offered as a course of study in school.

Today was all the same, didnt seem different at all. sigh~!! Make the most of what you have left of the holidays seems very hard huh~? sometimes i really want to go back to school. BUT NOT JUST YET~!! i havent finished my hw. STUPID ENGLISH LANGUAGE~!! i will give you an overview of what english language is tring to achieve. THEY SAY it is trying to teach us the roots of english and the 5 subsystems, how it came about and all sorts of differences in speech. I SAY that is utterly bs. Why are they trying to teach us about nasal and vocal cords? :U what the hell is that , itsnt it just read write and analysis >< THATS WHAT LIT AND GENERAL IS ~!! Does english language have to go against the tide huh~?? They should jsut call it history or biology for all i care~! so all i did today was do some stupid hw~! I WORKED MY ARSE OFF and i have completed...umm.. NOTHING~!! too hard. English language is making everyone stress. why do we need to know about sheet like this. E.g a Adjective is IN STUDENT WORDS a describing word. please correct me if im wrong, its right yer~? THEY SAY as adjective is and i quote ' A part of speech that refers to qualities or states. They're typicalled used to convey information about nouns. they may occur as a modifier in a noun phrase' ITS NOT WRONG OR ANYTHING but WHY AMKE IT SOO HARD~! HUH~?? TEENAGE LIVES ARE ALREADY SCREWED YOU DONT HAVE TO MAKE US REMEMBER THIS BS~!

OK so due to this horrible subject choice selection, i have only myself to blame sigh~! so today when i attempter these questions my xing qing wasnt very good and even kylie thought it was hard. i say she is like one of those top A+ students.

English is meant to be the things that helps us ocmmunitcate EASIER not INCREASE THE DIFFICULTY, i already have trouble delivering a message to my parents in english, and do this nonsense about vocal cores. I have a feeling that i may regret what i have wrote here today and love enlish language in the future but but BUT the hw is just gay~! today xing qing is totally bad so like yer cant write a decent post, sorry peoples~!!

270109

Blank~!!

Date: 26/01/09

Blank is lacking some usual or completing feature

Today it was both Chinese New year and Australia day~! which one do i treasure more... i have no clue. like if you asked me what soo special about australia day i will answer with _____ If you asked me and activities your meant to do on chinese new year i will again be _____ totally blank. I dont give a ____ about the speciality of this ______ country days. anyway enough of those.

Today i went to tution. i dont even give a ____ about some days and do like my daily routine >< anyway when i walked into tutors house, she said happy new year, like she was CHINESE~! shes not btw. Is she saying it coz we are asian~? or is she saying it because she doesnt give a _____ about australia day~? so i was quite stunned when she said that to us and i was like hrmm~! made me think you know. So i did tution and was blank, forgot like everything. mind was like thinking soo slow. like someone had put a blank test infront of me.

Is it always bad to be blank~? i mean like most of the time. like when awkard situations you are blank in the mind or when you talk to a girl you really really like and you just stuck there. its not like you cant say anything, you dont know what to say and your mind is clearly blank. But it is sometimes good yer~! just leave it as it is and be very quiet. or when your about to sleep and nothing is clogging up your brain and your totally blank, you get to sleep quite easily right~! and when you like emo sad and if you blank your mind out you wont be emo sad and save those cuts on your wrists. =]

260109

Stars~!!

Date: 25/01/09

Stars are any of the celestial bodies visible at night from Earth as relatively stationary, usually twinkling points of light.

Ok why am i talking about stars you may wonder. on chinese new year eve hrmm. Well first ill talk about my day. Today was yer chinese new year eve and australia day eve how fun. so we went to family friend's place to have a gathering dinner. How fun yer~! Not if my friend or friends sister weren't there i would be bored out of my pants. First my friend is family friends son who is a year older than me. which is perfect, like we can relate and stuff. and then its his sister :O like omg shes pretty~! but out of my age limit shes like older even though she doesnt look it. so im a gentalman and dont stare at anything coz im a good boy~!

OK moving on to the stars story. when we came home from family friend's place i looked out of car window and saw soooooo many stars. Started making me blink, soo bright at night soo not used to it. why am i soo curious about stars you may ask~? Coz my month in taiwan when my xing qing wasnt soo good i looked outside to see the pretty night BUT ONE PROBLEM~! there was ONE STAR IN THE SKY. ONE LONE STAR. well this made me think all holidays. why was there only one star in the sky, like for the whole time i was there only one.

Stars are meant to be pretty and abundant and are just there for you to enjoy. But when there is only one star in the sky it makes people think yer~? Like why... and then leads on to many other questions. Could that be you like with no one around, or maybe the star is the star in you life, like its trying to remind you that you miss one person or that star is that person and you always want her around. but yer many stars make one blink while one star makes one think~! =]

250109

Good~!!

Date: 24/01/09

Good is satisfactory in quality, quantity, or degree

Today i went out walking in a park. with family friend and parents >_< soo boring. im strolling in a park~!!!!! isnt that was OLD people do. IM NOT OLD, I HAVE WHITE HAIR BUT IM NOT OLD :( am i~?!?! well anyway we went to the park and they had some grill thing and i bought alot of grilled potatos and ate ( OH LORD THOSE POTATOS WERE SOO GOOD HEHE~!!). Coz again i eat coz im sad~! That is just me~! oh and the place you can like row a boat~! and i saw this guy soo far away from the cafe and stuff and he was all alone and he had a swarm of ducks surrounding him. soo lonely~! and then i thought to myself, do lonely people resort to animals like pets and stuff~?! coz maybe i need a pet like someone i can share thoughts too that i can see everyday. but mum will kill me. s

But my wish was granted when a good friend of mine. her name is like rachael =D and we discussed like everyday problems that we had/have and may have. Very similar, we are how cool is that huh~!! to have some that has gone through some things that you've have. but not like everything, that will be too good to be true.

So like everything is this world can't too good to be true right~?! like when people believe that they think its like all fake and wrong and wont believe it arent i right~? so why do we search for these things~? to prove to one self that really these things dont exist or do people look for these to HOPE something will go against the tide~? And when you do find this thing do you really believe its too good to be true or do you say it for a day or so and when your standards are raised say it isnt too good to be true~? do people in this world want too much or expect too much~? sigh~!

240109

Close~!!

Date: 23/01/09

Close is nearly even or equal.

Today i worked at my chinese/ future plans thing~!! soo awesome. i made all these plans to travel and stuff. Doubt this will ever come true~! if i get bad score in VCE i can stop writing this chinese and stop dreaming>_< Well atleast im doing work~! But mum doesnt believe me, she thinks that im stuck in my room playing games all day. WHICH I AM NOT~! not all day just some of the times. Dont you hate it when parents are like this, assume soo much and never ever will believe that their own son/daughter ever works hard~! Anyway i am close to finishing my chinese which i am very proud of =]

OMG After lunch i was close to finishing my chinese by liked to have saved it for later, so i did. and i started playing nba~!! ( SOME SHEET THERE) and then mum walked past :O and i ALT+TAB heheheehe love that combo its like the best~! Anyway it was soo close that mum thought it was a malfunction on my computer and asked me to take care of it ahhahahaha~!! BUT THEN NBA DID NOT PAUSE ITSELF AND BEFORE I WAS OWNING AND NOW THE SCORES FOR SOO CLOSE THAT I ALMOST QUIT. but i didnt coz im not those wimps that never end games. SO i fought my heart out in the game and won. BUT ONLY BY 2 s2pid. they shot a three point on the buzzer and it was SOOO CLOSE i mean SOOO CLOSE it did a circle and rolled out. Pity them. hrmm

Being close is one thing but being like SOOO Close is another. Like two people, how close can you be to trust the other and how close is too close. I mean like when you really really good friends with someone and really really close people think you are tight~! So in this world you can be soo close without being together? hrmm I guess close can be good and bad~! The more close you are the more hurt you get yer? but the closer you are the more you can trust. and be
loved~?!?!?!?!?

230109

Plan~!!

Date: 22/01/09

A plan is a scheme or method of acting, doing, proceeding, making, etc., developed in advance

Today i urged myself to do my chinese hw. YESH~! THE SECOND ESSAY~! i studied the questoins and saw one that i was interested in. it said that after year 12 exams you have 3 month break and carefully plan out that period. 3 MONTHS ~! HOLY MOLY~!! so i sat down and begun to jot down all the things i wanted to do when i was in year 12 :O plenty of stuff. hehe. I started me chinese very happily. After lunch i was still at it, soo happy writing what ever i wanted to do before i died haha~!. its like im planning my future :O this is the first time i was into chinese. haha. barely any distractions~!!

Planning, i usually hate planning, i mean wont u just like to take things as they come. maybe thats just me. i hate how dad always says u have to plan things, it wrecks your motivation to do something that you really want. Like isnt it more exciting that something happens that you dont plan or expect than planning and wasting 5 to 20 mins of your life~! i like it today because i have nothing else to do and its counted as hw so thast my excuse. Again thats just me.

220109

Accomplishment~!!

Date: 21/01/09

Accomplishment is an act or instance of carrying into effect.

Today i insisted to do all my chinese which is only like one essay~! ahah so i used my brain and all my effort to finish. AIYOOO but distractions still poured in yet again~! :( so i played a while, not too long and went back to chinese. I figured it wasnt too hard so i went to do some bio studying. when i came back to chinese it is already 21:00 so i put all my time in to it. suprising it only took around 15 mins SOO HAPPY~!! i had a sense of accomplishment. but then a girl named kylie lit it on fire and said you had to do two essays. TWO ESSAYS~!! OH DEAR :( BUT BUT BUT ..... i PFFFTTT today goal was crushed hmph and who ever told me you only have to do ONE ~! I ANGER YOU >:(

I guess you always have to make sure you accomplishment is fully done. Its like when your in the nba and your winning by two and the opponent throws in a three point on the buzzer. Crushes any living soul * nods nods* Dont you agree?

210109

Exciting~!!

Date: 20/01/09

Exciting is stimulating interest and discussion

Today, i cleaned my room :O because some guy named kahlipp was coming over to 'study' :S ahah. and i didnt want to look bad~!

Mum didnt know, but when he came mum's reaction was far from pleasant. But soon she settled down. Her rage has not being very active lately, it is probably the heat stealing all the energy and she needs to save up or something haha~!

So kahlipp and i were ultimate nerds and hardcore studying for the span of 20 mins >_< then distractions poured from all directions ~! GAMING ~! NBA ~!! CSS~!! CHINESE MUSIC~!!! and catching up with each , they all seemed more attractive than some gay chinese homework and some gay studying HAHA~!! so we lanned together. UNBELIEVEABLE ~! its all kahlipps fault AHHA~!!! jk

After lunch we watched 'how i met your mother' more distractions but never the less it was funny and i bet if you were in out situation you guys will do the same right~! We watched an episode and decided we both ( kahlipp and i) will do something for the year or maybe two or maybe forever~! lol~! ( kahlipp you remember right~? haha)

So today was a exciting day, and mum didnt rage before OR after kahlipps presence, all sweet. But i have to admit that we were totally distracted and should have done atleast one piece of work :S

200109

Lazy~!

Date: 19/01/09

Lazy is averse or disinclined to work, activity, or exertion; indolent

Today, my xing qing was crap all day, got pissed very easily. Yesterday, mum moved me into another room to sleep. It is the most uncomfortable bed ever ~! so i did not sleep yesterday and it results in to my pissiness. before it was morning i quickly tucked in to bed soo it looked like i was sleeping. AND THEN MY MUM SCREAMS AT ME TO GET UP~!!! and says i always wake up late ablhabalhabalhbal which is some serious bs and i argue saying the bed is sheet and shes like What ever bed you sleep on its the same~! its like i have been kicked out of my family and live in the back room ~! how gay ~!

She told me to call my maths tutor and say that i want to start on thursday~! LIKE WTH~! I dont want to start, she wants me to start. and i asked her why she couldnt do it, she says some bs and says her english isnt very good but when i asked her she says it perfectly in english, i was like WTH~!!!!!!! And they call me LAZY~!!

After lunch my mums xing qing is like up in the sky, because she successfully some vegetarian sheet which is quite nice i have to admit. so it was all good. i didnt get into trouble anymore but i still had to look like i was doing some work but obviously i was playing games. need to relax until like when i do work so i have a clear mind to think.

Yesh~! these past few i have been not doing much work. I was offended that i was called lazy, I usually not~! But since they called me that its fair to prove to them what the real lazy is HA~! It is also a break from the hardwork so its all good.

190109

Fortunate~!!

Date: 18/01/09

Fortunate is coming by good luck or favorable chance.

I woke up today, quite early, but i surely did not want to walk out of my bed because it will mean more work. And obviously ive had enough of study. But i immediately took it back, mum saw me put my head up to check time and she told get off my butt and do work. :( and she called me LAZY~!! PFFT~!

So today, i spent all my time studying, but like i am, i really cant be stuffed. so i PRETENDED to do work 哈哈哈 Im soo smart~! Too lucky, i didnt get caught. and when the went out i sneeked a few minutes to play some games that took me years to download~!

I would say my moves today were quite fortunate other than getting caught sleeping in. But i guess this is all God's doing letting me have a little break from all the pressure of work. Again i thank him.

180109

Ruined~!

Date: 17/01/09

Ruined is to destroy completely; demolish

Today was so gay~! As usually like always. To make it worse it was saturday, meaning BOTH~!! parents were home~! its hard enough to stand one, let alone two>_<. So today i went to do my work like ALWAYS~! In the middle of my work, i heard that dad was going out :O how cool. but i still had mum. So i still did work and ended up doing more than i thought. Im a hardworker :)

After lunch, it was all the same. Did i tell you~? mum said that i wasnt allowed to go out all this year~! ALL YEAR~!! are you nuts ~?!?!?! i asked her why and she just turned away and started watching tv pfft~!! MY YEAR IS RUINED~!! where am i gonna get a break or pay for my social needs HUH~!!?? IM A TEENAGER i need to be out for atleast once >:( How can you ground your child like that, i know i will never have to will to do that to my own children would you~?!

Not only ruined my year, this banning may result in major consequences in my studies and may end up ruining my exams, work and maybe life :O~!

170109

Normal~!!

Date: 16/01/09

Normal is conforming to the standard or the common type; usual; not abnormal; regular.

Sleep sleep sleep..~! I woke up at 14:17 today. This is some long sleep, like sleeping beauty or something >_> 14 hrs of sleep is crazy~! but thats how long i slept. but thats fair for the amount of hrs i was awake. So i guess it balances out yer. OK today i was hoping for some warm welcome home or sheet like that. But i guess my family is no way like that. i returned to my daily routines. Study lunch study dinner. Now im here blogging, complaining how crap my family is. I opened my computer and my mum is like raging just because i typed a few words when im meant to be studying. and then they threaten me on sheet like OMG im confisacating your left over money from holiday and also ill move your computer away. >_>~?!? wth What did i do to deserve this God i got home and slept and didnt even do sheet and now they are like BLHABLABALHABALHA~!!

AND then they are like~! STUDY HARDER this is year VCE. IT SEEMS LIKE YOU DONT KNOW WHAT VCE IS~!! im like im still on holiday and i just too work and study slowly soo i absorb. they are like HOLIDAY THERE IS NOO SUCH THING AS HOLIDAY~! YOU WORK NOW AND CRAM AND THEN TOMROW ILL WILL BOOK YOU IN WITH MATHS TUTOR~!
But i havent finished all of her work, its alot~! ALOT WTH ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT~! WHAT HAVE YOU BEING DOING OVERSEAS~!?! i was overseas having a holiday and fun. FUN~! WHATS THAT AND I TOLD YOU THERE IS NOO SUCH THING AS HOLIDAYS~! Sigh~! alright ill start START YOU HAVENT STARTED WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING THE PAST 1 MIN.
thats an extract of my mums rage. but in real life its more haunting and scary.

So i guess there is many different normals. Like MY normal day or like YOUR normal day is different. Normal routine is like hell for me, i seriously cant cope no matter how hard i try. All i can do is pray to God that my next day will be not normal. But who wants not normal? not normal means its weird and i dont want a weird day do i? Sometimes i just want to switch my normal with some other persons but i know thats all a dream and my mind playing gay games on me.

160109

Flight~!

Date: 15/01/09

A flight is distance covered or the course taken by a flying object.

So continuing from my previous blog entry where my auntie told me to go to airport early. We arrived there 5 friggen hrs early. and what I do .... I WAITED~! waiting 5 hrs doing nothing since its 1:00 in the morning and no shops are open. 5 hrs just gives me the anger. And i usually eat when my xing qing isnt good. BUT NOOO~!!! no shops are open. soo empty stomach.

Then when i signed in and all that crap i went to the gate to wait. MORE WAITING~! are u nuts~?? i waited for another hour and during that hour i puked for no reason. Nothing even came out>_> no food in stomach = no vomit but feel like vomiting. Anyway i got on the plane and TRIED to sleep but it was merely possible since planes are horribly noisy.

Switched flights at hongkong. soo confusing that i was almost late. Got on the plane and sat next to this very nice guy. Helped me do alot of difficult things. Thank you God for putting him next to me =]

Got to airport, mum picked me up and went home. Unpacked and showered then slept. I lacked 32 hrs of sleep and yet i couldnt sleep. Thought i went to my old self~! like cant sleep because of this thatandher. But soon enough i feel asleep.

Being on a flight sounds easy to sleep since everyone else is quiet, its dark like a sleeping environtment. I seriously have to disagree to this bs and say that it is very hard since it is noisy, cant lie down do its like sleeping upright >_> and smell of airplane just doesnt help~!

150109

Fun~!!

Date: 14/01/09

Fun is something that provides mirth or amusement.

Today was all fun and games. As it is my last day in taiwan all these guys are telling me to make the most of what i have left. So for once i listened to someone. Sigh~! it all started well.

Well in the morning i waited for a friend at the train station since he took the train from xinzhu to visit me. During my wait some scary looking beggar asked me for $10. LIKE I WAS GOING TO GIVE IT TO HIM~! soo i said no and he gave me this weirdarse look. Pfft~! what a loser.

After i met my friend we went to shopping mall to have lunch and then we went upstairs to play pool for 3 HRS~!! since it was cheaper and we are asian~! haha. After that we went to this other shoppo. Gigantic one. Had all everything you can think of and we just looked around but didnt buy anything. Then we went to fong jia night market and it was packed with people. We ate dinner there and had all these taiwanese cusines yummy stuff~!

I arrived home at around 21:00 and my auntie was like OMG~! we have to go to airport. pfft 21:00 my flight is at 6:15 the next morning what are concerned about. and then she went BALKJABLAHABLAHABLAHALBALh~! and then we went.

Having fun isnt always just stuff like games and sheet. Even just with one friend is enough or maybe your mind can do the work and create some sort of fun to take away the boredness. But fun will always come to an end. Its like its the best thing ever and can only get worse. That was my day. Not even that fun and plummets down to some xing qing thats really bad.

140109

Poor~!!

Date: 13/01/09

Poor is having little or no money, goods, or other means of support.

Today was a very alright day. Serious is really alright. Something majorary upset me today, after i finished thinning my hair i pasted this basketball court and i saw a little boy standing in the middle of it. He looked very poor and dressed up badly. He face was all dirty and if i looked at him any longer i would have cried. This got me thinking, how poor people can get and the ads for like world vision are really true. What made me feel worse today was that my auntie bought me $50 scarves. Two of them, i mean dont scarves only cost like $20 or less >_>. and then i thought of the little boy standing on the court. I really didnt not wnat to accept, but i really had no choice. So i took it in.

So being poor can make your life miserable but being rich can also do the same thing. yer? So would one rather live poor and happy or rich and problematic?

130109

Reminiscence~!!

Date: 12/01/09

Reminiscence is the act or process of recalling past experiences, events

Today i was having a decent day, my xing qing was also very good. Lunch was all nice, some exxpensive seafood to make to most of my last day in Taiwan. But then after dinner problems came from all sides. Somehow i have forgotten to by my very dear friends presents ARGH~!!! After that hell, some gay guy called abel asked who i disliked in my class, what a stupid guy. Then he came across some guy and asked why i disliked him. This made me reminiscence of the past. My past isnt all that good and never feel like remembering it. All those past mistakes and bs that i did i all regret. So today my xing qing was pulled down by a guy named abel~! how lame.

So my question is whether it is good to dwell on the past or shall we people just move on and forget and forgive no matter how bad it is? No matter what it is its gonna take a hell alot of convincing to forgive the people i dislike and forget all regrets and mistakes. Thats just me i guess~!!

120109

Homesickness~!!

Date: 11/01/09

Being homesick is acutely longing for one's family or home.

When you are overseas for this long amount of time, its is typical for a person to feel homesick. Am i right~? If i am right i must not be normal or something! sigh~! So yer i have been here for more than a month and i feel no urge of homesickness. Maybe i dont feel a strong connection for my family, hrmm~! But i still do miss seeing some of my decent friends espher. Anyway im home soon, soo today i made the most of it and went out for the whole day. It was my cousin's gf's birthday party today so i celebrated with them and ate cake, chatted and then when to play pool~! How exciting~?

What is it to feel homesick, is it like a normal longing for someone or is it totally different because its out to do with you family? Can the feeling be like a normal stomach ache or cold~?

110109

Present~!!

Date: 10/01/09

A present is something give or received without payment.

I have about like 3 days left in taiwan :O OMFGOMFGOMFG~!!! anyway i was thinking to buy everyone a small present. So today i went SHOPPING ~!! I went to many different stationary places to get keychains, pens and pacers for my lovely friends. Today when i woke up i go breaky and went straight to shopping :O~! At first i bought some stuff, but went i got home i was like :O not enough so i went back to the shop again. This time i made sure i bought enough, im pretty sure i bought over. but who cares~!! So everyone be happy your going to get something really cool when i see you :]

Everyone says when your buying presents its the thought that counts blah blah ~!!maybe yer~?!

100109

Influenced~!!

Date: 09/01/09

Influnence is the capacity or power of persons or things to be a compelling force on or produce effects on the actions, behavior, opinions.

Usually, i don't really like chinese songs, but the time i have spent at taiwan has really influenced me in my liking of mando songs. Everyday wake up to my cousins chinese songs >_<~!! After a month you adapt to this and start liking what he plays >_>~? Aiya~! Now im like addicted mando songs. Cant be that bad right~? improves my chink yer? haha >_>

I have also been influneced by a dear friend of mine XD haha. His name is like... Henry ^.^ This boy is soo hardworking that he spreads it towards his other friend, like me =]. so now i am like him and hardcore study. It will do me good ^^.

So being influenced can sometimes be good. Not always like drugs and smoking and gangstering those stuff not always good. NO NOT GOOD~!! TO THE LITTLE KIDS READING THIS, LIKE BENSON ALWAYS SAYS I QUOTE 'DONT DO DRUGS~!' But sometimes being influenced can be very good, and now im hardcore study and now i pray my year 11 will go smoothly with no asian fails. hahah useless wish ~!!

090109

Disguise~!

Date: 08/01/09

Disguise is to conceal or cover up the truth or actual character of by a counterfeit form or appearance; misrepresent.

Today i thought that maybe i should work hard in year 11. I am going to try and give it my best all year and try to be SMART ~!! lol sigh~! But will my best be enough? Or am i just trying to disguise myself as somebody else. Somebody im not? or someone i try to pretend but cannot manage the way i want.

To disguise is not always good, but it can change your perception and thinking to make you into a better person. But if you take it too seriously, it may mess you up and ruin you final intentions.

080109

Stupidity~!

Date: 07/01/09

Stupidity is the quality or state of being stupid; extreme dullness of perception or understanding.

During these holidays, i have been very lazy. Sigh~! The state of laziness has lead to my ultimate stupidity. I have grown very very stupid and barely can understand what my friends are saying. Aiya sorry you guys >_<. And being in taiwan has lowered my ability to say english. Aiyaa~! guess i have to work much harder this year.

I have mentioned this topic because i watched this tv show. Its female bang bang tang and they were asked questions. when the question recieved a wrong answered, they stick ben on their face. When i saw a girl with 8 bens on their face, I laughed and felt soo much better, and considered myself quite smart. HAHAHA~!!

Stupidity is kind of a feeling i guess, but not really~?! well i dunno but feeling stupid can change your perception of life. If, at the start, you were smart and then you turn dumb. The feeling of that, is like you swallowed your tougune or something. Well thats what i think >_>. Sigh~!

070109

Plain~!!

Date: 06/01/09

Plain is without special pretensions, superiority, elegance; ordinary

Today was all plain, i have only 8 proper days left in Taiwan and today i have made no effort to
make the most of the time i have left. I did nothing today but bum around at home.

But the food i ate was no plain at all. I have felt that taiwanese food is full of oil, and they dont know how to cook without LOTS OF IT. I have been here for more than one month and i still have not gotten used to it. They use soo much oil that it gives you sore stomach =[ but its still nice =] . But you can also get unoily stuff, at it is alot more plain but still mouthwatering. So after a mother of sore stomach food i decide to have corn cooked in water with salt. how simple? but very nice =] .

So is it good to be plain for a days so that things will get better from then on and your expectation will be lower so maybe you will enjoy life better? and plain food is better, healthier and is also nice =]

060109

Provoke~!!

Date: 05/01/09

Provoke is to stir to action or feeling.

Many things have provoked me today and all to different feeling and outcomes.
Today when i woke up i was outraged but the fact that my ipod earphones are now broken. very very angry so i start eating lollies. i felt alot better. But i was then moved to a laughing fit when my cousin started playing these games where he played for fun not for competition. I have relieased that there are two types of asian. There are those who study and hope never to get asian fails (anything under 100% that is) and there are those gamers. YOU CAN NEVER EVER BE BOTH. If you are your not an asian. HAHAHA~!!! jkjkjk course there are more types asians. but they are the majority of asians. today i viewed some hardcore asian gamers playing my cousin. First he was playing for fun, but then the constant headshots provoke him become on of those.

Does provoking always lead to anger or can being provoke help someone do nice deeds? and the way that objects that are not even living can provoke such anger. aiya sigh~!

050109

Discovery~!!

Date: 04/01/09

Discovery is a productive insight on something or someone

Today my depressing xingqing has not recovered but a tiny bit better. I have discovered how to make myself feel better ^^. I have figured out that, when i am in a bad mood, i either eat >_> or shop(some may think this is very girly) but it makes me feel better. Somehow blowing my hard earned money makes me feel better. How weird? Well today i went to some super branded place and felt dirty everytime i walked in to a store >_>. Everything was all atleast 7000 bucks. I cannot afford that. That is way to KUA ZHANG~!!.

I also made another huge discovery. This is discovery surprised me greatly, the fact that i have done my transistion homework :O and that i only have less than two week in taiwan left :O. I have also discovered that my homework is quite hard. Hrmm english language is stand out hard. sigh~!

Something i have not yet discovered is the fact why two people that love each other get together and enjoy each others company. They will always feel that someone will be there if anythign went wrong or share things that need to be shared. Sigh~! maybe it is due to pp that everyone acts like however they act.

040109

Lonely~!!!

Date: 03/01/09

Lonely is being affected with, characterized by, or causing a depressing feeling of being alone.

I have summed up and strongly believe that these last two weeks i have left and the lack of motivation come clearly from the normal reaction from being lonely. Lonely not from parents, but the basic site of my close friends and hearing them talk.

I figured this out by watching an episode of grey's anatomy. It explained the simple existence of loneliness and, the different types of loneliness. Then it went on to how someone at their limit of loneliness and when and what enough is.

Damn~! this is what too much tv does to you. You get soo caught up in the show that you seem to relate the shows life in to your own life. Or maybe its just my xin qing isnt very good today, its like male pms or something >_> sigh~! and maybe this bad mood is created but plain loneliness o.O who knows

030109

Guilt~~!!! >_>

Date: 02/01/09

Guilt is a feeling of responsibility or remorse for some offense, crime, wrong, whether real or imagined.

It is less than two weeks until i come home to Australia, and i am feeling ultimately guilty that i have not done any of the transistion homework. For many of you, you will think this is normal and i should be having fun overseas or something. But i did actually bring school books overseas in a attempt to do the work. Today when i woke up, i thought i ould plan to do this work today, but again due to my lack of motivation and self belief i failed to even reach a pen. Instead i bummed around and watched tv. Sigh~!

I also noticed a trend in my cousins family, my cousins bullied their own dear mother due to her bad cooking. I could see the hard work and effort she put in just by the look of her hands, unbearable to describe. But according to the mother, she feels that it is her fault that this mis care took place, she says that she should have cared more for their education and social communications. I feel very sorry for her and pray to God to help her in any way or form. I also rain pity on the male members of the family, they should feel guilty of what they have done and how hurtful and angry they made their own wife/mum, as a result of their uncaring way to thank what they have. I pray to God to forgive them and hope they may change their ways in the future.

I have commited a vilotaion to myself, today, for not doing my simple goals i set for myself today. I also feel that my cousins should feel guilty for the mis treat of their own mother. They may also be an unnecessary guilt at the back of her mind, but as i said, i, myself, believe that it is unnecessary and should not dwell on her mind.

Today my xin qing isnt very good. Due to my lack of motivation to work, i feel utterly guilty for not doing anything about it. I can sum up my actions today as lethargic. And also reflecting on the events that were experienced today i would wake up everyday and be thankful to God for this life that i have and every opportunity He has given me.

020109

New Year's Resolution ~!!

Date: 01/01/09 (OMG 09)

Resolution is the act of resolving or determining upon an action or course of action, method, procedure.

This is my first post, it's new years and it was a hell alot of fun during new eves year celebration yesterday. Fireworks much and stuff. We counted down from 60 secs. The guy on stage was nuts, our mouths were about to drop off >_>. Anyway, before the count down, they tossed like two huge beach balls. They said that if u are able to touch it once you would have an answer to your 2009 wish. And YESH~~!! I touched it once, how sad, I actually believe that kind of stuff, but my xing qing hasn't been very well lately, so a little hope like that isn't too bad right? After countdown we just sat by some lake and thought about stuff. I leaked a few tears, don't know why but im an emotional person, and i also saw my cousin probably because he miss his girlfriend, she couldn't attend because her parents didn't let her or something. We got home very late and slept at 4 something.

At 9, my bloody dad side grandma called me and told me to wait downstairs so she could take me shopping. Grandma >_> but shopping sounded pretty awesome, so I tagged along. My dad's sister drove us there and dad side granddad cam along to>_>. But when we got there my shopping legs came in to action and soon I chose alot of stuff, but only ended up buying two jumpers and really nice converse shoes. I thought they were pretty nice all this, to soon find out it was all to bribe me to lunch AND dinner. We had lunch at some barbeque place, pretty decent, but for some reason at the end i threw up, but of course not infront of them, in the bathroom. Still I dont know the reason why.

Later that day, my very nice auntie( dad's bros wife) took me to her friends store to buy clothes. Little did she know, i was basically going to buy the whole store and replace my previous wardrobe. >_> we went there at like 6 and i kept choosing and trying until finally at 9 i finished >_>. I bought clothes, alot ~!! and it had a sum of 11,000 crazy much ~! >.<>_> so clearly you can see now i am totally broke.

I have bascially got a new wardrobe so i believe this is my new year's resolution and many others.

Today, was a good day i guess. the buying stuff was good but i didnt see much of my cousins. very ke si. i spent a totally of around 17,000. very guilty >_< but oh well what done is done ^^ so thats about it =].

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE~!!!

010109